A lot of things in this world seem insufficient to me.
I started thinking about this while I was searching for a name for this blog. At first I had a series of similar, but differently worded, ideas,but something about each of them was inadequate for some reason. They were insufficient. Then I thought of one that seemed perfect, but the more I thought about it and analyzed what it meant, I realized that it too was insufficient. It was incomplete, imperfect; there were many more perspectives and angles to the idea that the specific title I had chosen did not encompass.Then I realized that this is part of the beauty of contradictions and imperfection.
This led me to the, perhaps overly dramatic, title you see now. Insufficiencies. I realized that there are so many things in life that are insufficient. There are many things that are incomplete. We are incomplete, our perspectives are incomplete, our goals are incomplete, our societies and cultures as a whole are incomplete, our perception of ourselves and our world is incomplete. Quite often I feel as though I come to a conclusion about something and then, like my titles for this blog, the more I analyze it the more insufficient an explanation it becomes. I cannot help but think that, right now, my explanation of this blog is somehow lacking and inadequate. It probably is. Even the title I am trying to explain is well…insufficient (ha). Regardless, there are voids and flaws in the way we see things. There is always another way to look at something and, it seems, especially lately, there is always a new viewpoint to consider, or another person that brings up another good point that you had never thought of before. There are things that seem contradictory, and yet equally logical.
This may seem rather hopeless, and to me it does indeed at some times, but here is the beauty of it: God is complete. He is both whole and Holy. He is sufficient, and He is truth. In our search for what is true and good and whole, we will always find Him at the center. I will be honest and say that, a lot of the time, I am not sure exactly what that looks like, but that is what I am trying to figure out. I am confident that if I follow Him, the way, the truth, and the life, He will lead me towards a (perhaps often changing) more accurate depiction of what is true and good and whole. He is true and good and whole. This requires a great amount of trust and humility that I do not often possess, but learning is a process, and you don’t learn new things if you always stay satisfied with the old things.
So, this is, partially, what this blog will be about a lot of the time. I hope you don’t think that I think there is no absolute truth. After all, if our perception can change our perspective and few things are ever complete, how can we trust that what we believe is really true? To be honest, I am not sure what the answer to that is, but I do believe that there is a very powerful God in Heaven who is loving and kind and full of what is true. I do believe that I am saved through faith, by His grace, given by the blood of Jesus Christ. I do believe that I want my life to be for His glory, and I want to pursue what it means to know Him and know who He is with everything in me.
I tend to think in questions, so I’m sorry if sometimes that is all that comes out. I will probably ask some pretty absurd ones at times, and I would appreciate it if you would tell me that and give me your opinions and insights.I will admit to you that I am a bit nervous about you reading this (if people actually do, haha), because I am afraid that I will be wrong, or crazy, or a bad writer, or something else, but I think it will be kind of fun at the same time and I hope you can at least get a good laugh out of my insanity 
I need to stop rambling on now (and sleeep). I will probably do that a lot too. And I just wrote about eighteen million things in one post and left out about another thirty million that I wanted to say…So, until next time. Thanks for reading
